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WINTER OF LIFE LYRICS
"Parentheses" (2003 Demo)
1. ...Parenthesis...
2. This Cold Embrace
3. WitHer
4. Last Night (Like the Next One)
5. be{for[ev(H)er]}
6. Winter of Life
7. For the Person I'll Become
8. Rain (Ghost Track)
1. ...Parenthesis...
2. This Cold Embrace
Inner silence, wall of glass
Between my life and your world
I see, we’re further than ever more
And you still refuse to hear
What my wounded mind screams
And for years and years in the shadows I hid
Iced statues is all I see
Stopped in the same position
Waiting for a cold embrace
This mental dispossession
Iced statues is all I see
Stopped in the same position
But you have to run
Open your eyes, begin to burn
But you seem to be blind
And in this cold embrace (you) lay again
And again (you’ll) lose your face under ice
But sometimes I hear you cry
When in this cold embrace (you) die again
And again in my heart burns a fire
Out of this cold embrace
We have fear, we know nothing
Yes we see the way, now,
But it’s longest, it’s still longest
Yes we know what’s the way
But there is only darkness
Iced statues is all I see
Stopped in the same position
Waiting for a cold embrace
This mental dispossession
Iced statues is all I see
Stopped in the same position
But we have to run
Open our eyes, begin to burn
3. WitHer
Like a flower I witHer
Like an autumn leaf without Her
Why?
It’s all a game of a weary mind…
Empty trunks for my stolen dreams, I’m
looking at this world behind a barred mirror
(Oh life), give me a shape that I can lose without sorrow
Give me a name that I can waste for tomorrow
What remains of the early lives
Just the grey that covers my eyes
And of the dreams where I laid
Just my own demons
…the empty times…
…a life distorted…
…the falling…
…the everything…
There’s a nothing in my heart
It’s evolving, expanding
Everyday it says:
I am you
It has your voice
How I hate you, my goddess
‘Cause I witHer without Her
Can’t you see… in me?
So try to close your eyes
and seek me as I am
the shine of a freezing sun
the burning ice under your skin
the joy I never showed
in all the tears I hid a laugh
So meet me out this place
That I will disappear because…
If the lies of my present are closing the “tomorrow-be” door
Like the echoes from past lives obsess every breathe, I am
Where all flowers wither to remember the beauty they lost / and a petal falls
Where in a December tear, drop under burden of years it will get drown
Slowly flow in this few sap
That remains in this old tree
Joys that return when all is lost
Didn’t seem that deeper wounds
If an hard bark seems to shelter me by the outside
It’s in me that you continue to dig… you dig…
There’s a something in my heart
Always running, hiding
With a bit of voice it says
Please hear me
It has my voice
Maybe a shade of myself
When I wither without me
I don’t want to see
I’m like a down-fall without tomorrow
I proclaimed my funeral long time ago
it’s too sad to live my slow travel
close to Death I danced on my grave
Unconscious of life that flows around
An empty coffin for my stolen future
I waste my strength against nothing made walls
I’m the vampire of myself soul
I burnt me I burnt you for this wretched un-life
Wither…
This is what I am for you!!!
But you never shown that you wanted to understand
You just denied my smiles
And with you I forgot
...another occasion lost in time...
4. Last Night (Like the Next One)
Last night she went away
leavin'me with my broken heart
to a long vigil of pain
for one unspoken word
Last night she went away
after spoken so long to me
she tried to remove my mask
but I didn't respond to her
another occasion lost in time
that changes in hate my love
but the clock is running now
for another night I'll fail
The dark of a seasonless night
The wind that shake our hairs
Someone fly on us
Just like the next one
The truth we know but (we) hide
A game where graze is a sin
An heavy burden on our harts
Just like the next one
I haven't tried to kiss her
but I've tried to kill myself
she's tightened me so strong
that death has failed in pickin'me up
another occasion lost in time
that changes in hate my love
but the clock is running now
for another night I'll fail
5. be{for[ev(H)er]}
Breathe after breathe I’ll find peace of mind
Don’t you see? I’m already calming down, right?
After all when a story ends is to start another one
As long as you’re able to wait…right?
RIGHT?
Anxiety kills who’s been won by life
(Who won the war I fought?)
Fear burns the future of who has lost in the past
During all my life
Every time I threw myself to catch each moment
And that way I only lost lots of them
While I rose again from dust
I wanted memories to be the only grip with reality
And the future to be the time for my dreams
I’ll destroy building emptiness
And I wonder
What’s the moment between death and life?
And I wonder: Why?
Are these moments so weak, so fragile?
And I wonder
What’s the instant between love and…
How can I call this moment?
Time(?)…
Before ever there was darkness
Before Her, the cold promised me
That he’d have come back before
I’d have skimmed delight
Time, you freezed me
In this eternal sunrise eve
The tomorrow of a sunset
Which, you promised, will be forever
Not being
Increases my hunger of reality
Not moving
Increases fear and anxiety
Staring at the others
Increases my regrets
Not finding Her
Is the cause or the effect?
Freezed in cold steel
Grass of the hill
Waves of the sea
An extinguished sphere… and me
Blocked in the movements
Created by memories of a wind
I wait (gazing far away)
The one who will fix my instant
Damned adolescence
I lived a life to please everyone
And I created another one to stay
Beside that a rag of me which advanced
I thought you could lie and now I wanna get out of it
I see I need Her to enter my world while I wonder...
While I wonder
What’s the moment between death and life?
While I wonder: Why?
Are these moments so weak, so fragile?
While I wonder
What’s the instant between love and…
How can I call this moment?
Freezed in cold steel
Grass of the hill
Waves of the sea
An extinguished sphere… and me
Blocked in the movements
Created by memories of a wind
I wait the one who will fix my instant
(gazing far away)
and from far away she’ll come
and the wind will start to blow
releasing every moment
I held there
So this other life will die
So my smiles will make some sense
And my words will have a goal
Finally clear
RIGHT?
6. Winter of Life
“Why do I have to love?”
asked the man to the wind.
Being undelived
“if it makes me cry,
making me weak,
driving me crazy?”
“’Cause you’re a man,”
said the wind.
“Why do you flow so serene
while I’m crumbling?”
said the man to the summer-end sea.
“Cause there are more waves in you
then in all the flood
I’ve ever brought.
But I’m eternal
I saw thousands of seasons,
And you’re stuck in winter of life.”
Staring at the snow that falls around
(cold seems to know what burns in the man’s heart)
She’s inside, laying on a pallet much lighter
than the icy floor he runs on, alone.
“Peace, silence, stop this violence”
but the furious rain screams now
“love, hate, this is your fate
man, in winter you will live your life”.
“Why do I have to hate Her?
Why do I have to hate myself?
Why do I have to hate you all?
Why do I need you, and why did I forget
the stars talking about Her laughing
while I poison pools?
We are so close and so damn apart.”
“But I will rise from the winter of life
burst by the fears and the tears every night
I’ll see the light in the darkest day
if you will fight by my side, my pain”.
“Why do I have to hate the sparkle of the fire?”
Said the man to the dying sun.
“She gives the life that She always wants to take away.
Why don’t I have the strength to stop, to breathe?”
“I got no answer, you see, I’m burning.
Who do you think that burst me? And why?
I’m condemned to die and to be born again
Burning again, suffering, rejoicing, suffering again.”
“If dreams didn’t want to be reality,”
said the man to the moon in the well.
“Yes, and I wouldn’t be anything but a reflex, man,
I’d shine, I’d cry and I’d delight.
You got hands, you got a tongue,
you’ve felt pain, feel this for me.”
But while the man howls to the silence
While his thousands voices forsake him
She’s inside, laying on a pallet much lighter
than the icy floor he runs on, alone.
There’s a voice in every act of mine
It’s a sound you can’t catch
There’s a strangled scream in my breast
It’s a silence that wouldn’t crash
There’s some lies hidden in my words
They turns to a love you can’t grasp
There’s a deep silence in our worlds
It’s a violence I cannot stand
7. For the Person I'll Become
I run and the world changes
Threads connect around me
Knots that wrap on me
However they don’t press me
I’m too fast
I run and the world changes
Images flow around me
My hand stretchs
I would to touch the lives that I watch
Air, it’s all air
I haven’t touch
I’m the sight
I’m the hearing
I run and
The world changes
Why am I unable to stand?
Like a deity I feed upon other’s lives
A nothing god surrounded by thousands of god
But I feel the life in me
I perceive my mortality
All the pain it’s so sweet
When you die as god and born as man
The person I’ll become
For the person I’ll become
For the twin line between never and ever
For the things that let me say: I am there
For the ruins I’ve lost inside I will cry tonight
I should believe Some strong claws
That I should change Are dragging me
That I’ll refind me I know, but why?
The worst is in me
I should believe (the worst is in me)
Can I decide
In this deicide?
8. Rain (Ghost Track)
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