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SUFFERING LYRICS
"Bittersweet the Suffering" (1998 Demo)
1. Oblivion Stare
2. Birth's Descent To Melancholy
3. God of Nothing
4. Worthless
5. Turned into Nothing Again
1. Oblivion Stare
I stare into oblivion
And wish that I was there.
In my dreams we never parted,
you never left me broken-hearted.
Spurned by you my love betrayed,
hurt, dejected and dismayed
Ribs of ice cage my heart
since you tore our love apart.
Sorrow-filled, I reminisce,
how my life came to this.
Devastated you left me,
my loneliness is agony.
Left me to this SUFFERING,
in my sadness I begin…
…to stare into oblivion
and wish that I was there.
You never meant to cause me pain,
or so you said so please explain,
how your oaths of love for me
ended with my misery.
I’ll nevermore know your embrace
or gaze with loving at your face.
All I have are my memories,
tarnished by later discoveries.
Love’s loss is hate’s gain
Compassion turns to pain
Wasted years drowned in tears
Life torn apart so I start…
…to stare into oblivion
and wish that I was there.
My existence is now meaningless,
this torment too harsh to express.
Pathetic fantasies of what I should have done,
my eyes now locked into oblivion.
These are my emotions
which with you now I share
You’ve heard the words I’ve spoken
but still you do not care.
2. Birth's Descent To Melancholy
Blood pumps, rhythmic pulse
Encased within my loving host
Serenity shattered, torn from the womb
Pitiful screams, bloodstained I’m born
Depression the foundation on which life is built,
Innocent childhood laughter, now tears of adult guilt
Passion for life; impossible to maintain
When every emotion leads to pain.
Eyes once bright with the joys of youth
Now red-rimmed scarred by truth
The burden of existence persists
Bowed, near broken, misery kissed
I look within seeking peace
A place of solace, my pain to cease
But there’s no escape from self torment
The ceaseless depressive descent.
My soul consumed by black bile
my heart unable to reconcile.
Happiness is impossible to find
When melancholia swamps my mind.
Delving deep within my mind, abnormal introspection
Alone inside my head, depressive reflection
Solitary soul, from company I recoil
Involuntary reclusive in mental turmoil
A morbidity of the spirits permeates my life
I can’t predict a future unfettered by this strife
Negative emotions prevalent in me
Birth’s descent into melancholy.
3. God of Nothing
Can’t you see? Religion is fallacy
Worship with me the god I decree
He is the void; silence & invisibility
So bow your head and worship with me
Pray to the god of nothing
For he shall deliver
He shall provide you with naught
So become a believer
From nothing I come,
With nothing I was born
& when I die there’s nothing left,
so to nothing I am sworn
hollow words to an empty god
I don’t waste my breath
I simply pray for nothing
I am not bereft
Our father who aren’t in heaven
Hollow be thy name
Naught shall be done
By you to no one
No one reveres your name
I don’t begrudge you your beliefs
I only pity you
Governed by a religious code
In everything you do
Re-incarnation; a higher state of being
Or some heaven is your goal
Forget these foundless dreams
And let nothing claim your soul.
4. Worthless
Study your life and you’ll see
what has come to be.
It’s a waste, fucking disgrace
of mortality.
Don’t you sometimes wish
that you didn’t exist?
Despair, anguish;
it must get better than this!
Happiness is just not meant to be,
be like me, revel in your misery,
accept your sadness with dignity,
the fate of all humanity.
You are to blame, for your own pain.
Life makes no sense. Worthless existence.
Embrace life in it’s futility. Numbing core of nullity
Life burdened by stress. Existences worthlessness
Why waste your time? Pointless
struggling to achieve;
the views much better down on your knees,
looking up at impossible dreams
no-one wants to hear your screams.
Lower your voice to a pitiful whine,
wear with pride the yellow down your spine.
Of your heart create a void,
accept defeat or be destroyed
Rejoice in your sorrow
Another bleak tomorrow
Bask in exquisite misery
Accept no sympathy
Bitter sweet the SUFFERING
Crush the dreams to which you cling
Destined for a pitiful fate
You wallow in your own self hate.
5. Turned into Nothing Again
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