|
SHADOWCAST LYRICS
"Near Life Experience" (2003)
1. Mindgames
2. Permanent Crackdown
3. Mass-Placebo
4. Antisense
5. eXisTenCe
6. Snow Crash
7. Playing God
8. Near Life Experience
9. No Man�s Land
10. Pitch-Black Insomnia
1. Mindgames
entering - the near life experience…
for things to come…
leaving some outer memories
for things to be done…
don't you stay, far away...
life is the trial of something I don't even understand
more & more things happen always different as I planned
I'm on the highway to nowhere, where things are different any way
take me to another planet, take me to a rainy day…
what if all your lifestyle ended up for tomorrow
would you scream out sorrow?
what if there was an exit for you to go
would you take a silent road?
don't you know you are asking for being in form...
& you keep on requesting putting inside the norm
you feel that every thing is taking part
no-one should ever escape
sometimes it really makes me wonder - what can life be about?
is it just the way of nature to be entering in & out?
take me further on your blackened wings bring me forth another dream
this is a neverending story within another daylight-beam
2. Permanent Crackdown
...welcome the wastelands
we have been ending up by destroying our inner part
believing in nothing but our selfish suicidal art
the corrsion that we built
false romance to be willed
our life is filled with redemption & guilt
we keep on trying to control each other's hand
no matter what or if we drown we do not aim to understand
the devil's advocate
is what we procreate
so shut the fuck up (or) do you hesitate?
don't you ever feel?
life is a game & there is nothing about it to be real…
the story has begun…
it's a struggle to survive, an element full of lies,
it's a war that can't be won
…the permanent crackdown
we want progression, in the same way devastation
to maintain our own power, only others to devour
keep on fighting for freedom
& killing for wisdom
'cause we don't care if it's dead-end-run
we love each other, don't fear murdering our own brother
just have eyes for our own interest & nevermind to re-infest
mankind's vicious circle
the morbid world-recycle
the downward spiral of the human guideline
I will just lose myself somehow…
drown myself in regrets
'cause you are the devils in disguise
for someone I have bet
I don't want to feel so real, feel so real again
just loose myself, just drown myself & silence will remain
3. Mass-Placebo
so here's another senseless story
without exit or hope & without any glory
come along & I will pull you down
to the center of redemption or the toxic crown
tell me what you are waiting for & tell me what you are crying for
this is - where we are from, this is - where we belong
there are things you might ignore & there are things you might explore
entering the welkin' dying puppet throne
you keep on asking, you keep on yearning for more
you keep on talking & there are things for you to score
you get another chance, within your stupid trance
surrounding is the interface, searching for some outer grace
the toxic command, the inner remnant
there is nothing left for you to self-refrain
come on take it to another end - the freedom of our blend
come on take it somehow higher now - & you will understand
it's an illusion of a dying plan - the failure to expand
cause you keep on trembling - the way you'll find an end
the mass-placebo
use your senses, rely on expenses
pattern chain moving & arpeggio grooving
killing joke or silent moving
infinity, reality, what are they doing?
it's a newly spinning universe, the center of some blind remorse
will the future plead for love/hate as seed
world's a hateful spinning course, just try to find your war-resource
down on your knees - a fictive bet you'll need
4. Antisense
the final showdown…
I don't know where to go…
I don't know where to go by now…
to let my anger grow
to let my hatred flow somehow
'cause when I put on the news, each day at night
& see all the conflicts that may or even will collide
there is no more excuse for our self-abuse
all these goddamn things - I even feel amused
come on, take it on by now, this bitter role
of playing god somehow or even satan's pole
double moral, the freedom choral
our mind-expanse, your ignorance!
I'm feeling somehow better now, after all the fury's out & nothing could cure my damn agonies
I'm feeling somehow lighter now, after all the pain's cried out & nothing could build more stupidities
disastrous & mournful, adventurous & harmful
this is how the story goes
but then again I decide that my dreams should not hide
& no-one ever knows
& then I realise one thing - that we are killing ourselves
'cause our greed is leading us to our own graves
"wise" decisions & blind superstitions
hatespin facility & the deathroll fatality
to venus & black or just a strange little pill
new conflict dimension & some more reasons until
the hate based machinery, a cold subsidarity
is starting its fucking tech-raging clarity
5. eXisTenCe
which ways do you chose, which ones to abuse?
come along, make me stronger & taste no longer
when moments are gone, when moments turn to stone
I'll be the one to carry on...
which ways to accuse, which ones for fair use
the ignorance dropdown of a joyless stardom
when moments are gone, when moments turn to stone
I'll be the one who takes it all...
I have to go, to feel inside the pain is real
I know, I never choose to go
you have to know, I'm dead inside, seems poisoned light
I know, I'll be leaving now
I wonder where we will go?
I wonder why we might know - it's forever
& there is no way going back again for now…
so if you try to take it on
so if you try to leave it all - forever
I will not drown
there are ways we wonder, there are rays we encounter
there are things we say & we find in any way
antisense behaviour, tearing saviour
harvesting - the bleak seed raver
hear me calling, see me falling in vain
see me asking for answers, when I cry out in pain
start to leave all behind, try to fold & unwind
& you'll see if there is more to remind
6. Snow Crash
the end is yet to come…
distingue your memories before they're gone
the end is yet to come…
but then everything turned out to be wrong
we were meant to speak in highly different tongues
to enable our diversity, to enable being social ones
back at the birth of man, back at the birth of speech
to discover excitement, to disorder & to teach
it's the 23rd century & there's a newly sworn enemy
coming from behind & turning you to blind
a steady-state of a binary presentation
a hate-progression of a coming termination
did you reveal your scars & human signs?
your mind keeps turning, this is not real
did you re-heal your wounds & sweet-caress?
I am the virus in you & I am going to steal
it's a snow crash - inside of your head
a pounderous oblivion, a force to be fed
it's like a mental destruction - turn of 180 degrees
dementia is coming, don't you agree?
it's a snow crash - inside of your brain
heading towards your mind & falling like rain
it's like a war inside - when all our thoughts collide
'cause you've been erased even though you're alive
metaverse, the virtual desire
a fictive world with all dreams that you admired
but now there's revenge, the fall of babylon
an Infokalypse erasing what was going on
don't you believe, don't you retrieve?
it's the disorder of the word & the rising of grief
a stroke of excitement & of permanent dillusion
a paradise lost in fucking horrendous confusion
take my breath away
& knowledge will always stay…
take my breath away
& noone will ever stay...
7. Playing God
your mind keeps talking now…
your soul keeps trembling - somehow?
sometimes I wonder - how does it feel?
is there are reason to kill or is it just making ill
to murder & to strangulate, to hesitate or resignate
time is non toxic, but will never procreate?
the ability to heal & cure
the tempting reason to react no more
mastermindess, cluster-blindness
can it be confident or obsolete kindness?
there is no tomorrow for the human race
as it comes down to us now - face to face
the lords of chaos, the rats of redemption
the killer's eye, the serpent's relention
what if I knew there was nothing to lean on?
forever & never, again dismissed
now its time to understand, it's all a fake command
you gotta take your chance
point blank in arrival, death's head a denial
mass-bound aggression, a coming termination
in colourful speed, the line to exceed
drowning, winding, wait & bleed
escape-phenomenon or heat-shock ecstasy
mass placebo or tormenting agony
the extinction level is set for you to dwell
destruction of madness is here to steal
8. Near Life Experience
when I sit down & think about all aims in life
when I walk out & breath in all that's being derived
when my eyes start sensing among the things to come
then I wonder why I often keep on going wrong
if I supposed there was some kind of outer form
if I opposed all dogmas being inside the norm
if I kept telling that everything seems like a lie
then I could say that I'm - feeling alive!
when I raise up my hand reaching out for some good
when I try to compete & don't feel understood
when my mind keeps trembling of some inner fear
then I wonder if our end could be anyway near
if I chose to reject from all the things yet to come
if I instead let go all moods that made me overcome
if I never felt some regrets & if I never let loose
then I could say that there are still things - I have to chose
come closer, step further & listen to me
there's no solution but a suggestion, the key?
I don't have a message, there's no instruction
to handle yourself & to prevent destruction
& I know it's an experience that you chose every time
collecting thoughts & being so amused
take it all away
impressions will always stay
don't want to take it back
science evolving
progression dissolving
9. No Man�s Land
every thought is in my vein & they all seem to be the same
every breath I take a night makes me me lose some more delight
every story has an end & there's no way our lifes extend
every sorrow starts to grow when I let my feelings flow
is it truth, is it pain or fear?
it comes all down & seems so near
I wonder if you will understand
I welcome you to - welcome to no-man's land
all seems wastes up for sure & there are wounds that should be cured
fate & fiction I neglect, senseless words that I detect...
can somebody tell me if some silence is near?
or if it's only a vision & I don't see clear…
what do you expect from me, what do you want me to be?
implications of change, filtering your thoughts to be free
did you ever think of what's behind that door?
did you ever find the things you'are looking for?
you never tried & you never expand
I welcome you to - welcome to no-man's land…
10. Pitch-Black Insomnia
|
|
