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NATHAN P. HOLLY LYRICS
"The Suffering" (2004)
1. Desolate
2. The Suffering
3. Endgame
4. Am I Dreaming
5. In Death...
6. I Am Alone
1. Desolate
My emptiness will set me free
Final act of the desperate one
Eternal light will swallow me
Dark storm shades the second son
Look past the false reality
Stare into my mortality
This evil dream, I must awake
Consume to Immortality
Show me a better way to live with desolation
I see no way to heal from the devastation
This is the only way to overcome the sorrow
Give me strength to take the path I must follow
Shattered dreams scar my soul
Abused by my destructive life
Haunting visions of my downfall
Can?t see why I am alive
I close my eyes world fades away
I see the light of immortality
Her voice calls me, begs me to stay
Ghosts of my past seek to betray
Show me a better way to live with desolation
I see no way to heal from the devastation
This is the only way to overcome the sorrow
Give me strength to take the path I must follow
Show me a better way to live with desolation
I see the way to heal from the devastation
This is the only way to overcome the sorrow
Give me strength to take the path I will follow
2. The Suffering
My Heart Felt Like A Stone
As She Stared Into My Eyes
How Can A Few Simple Words
Forever Change Your Life
My Life Is Filled With Sorrow
Too Sad To Even Weep
Eternal Promise Of Love
Impossible To Keep
A Painful Long Life To Live
The Truth so Difficult to Accept
At Her Wedding They Cried
But For Me Nobody Wept
3. Endgame
Sun Sets on me the final time
For me the bells will not chime
Dark clouds of despair shade my soul
Cold winter air withers the Rose
The light shone bright within my grasp
Refused for love a final chance
Deny the gift given to me
To roam the earth in agony
I begin to feel the pain
Burning anguish sustains
Darkness shades the light
I cease to fight
I'm forced into Endgame
Eternal night tortures my mind
Only in dreams does the sun shine
Awake I know I'm alone
Awake the sorrow will not let go
The Shadows stole my will
There are no dreams left to fulfill
Wait for the end to come
Wait for thy will to be done
I begin to feel the pain
Burning anguish sustains
Darkness shades the light
I cease to fight
I'm forced into Endgame
4. Am I Dreaming
I Entered my Mind....for reprieve
Away from Reality
But I've Strayed too Far, I've Stayed too Long
Memories Once Lost....that should have stayed lost
Images with no Shape...I can't see
Am I Dreaming Once Again
Free From the Tears I Have Shed
Somehow Nothing Feels the Same
Have my Dreams Abandoned me
Am I Dreaming Once Again
Where my Pain Dissolves Away
But the Flower isn't Red
And the Joy has Turned to Hate
Buried Deep Within my Mind
Forgotten Dreams, Tortured Screams, Mislead by Lies
Shadows Cloud the morning sky
Ghosts of my Past, Nothing Lasts, Silent Cries
Angered by Grief I Hold my Heart
Insane my world falls apart
Subconscious Demons Rear Their Head
Betraying me, Taunting me, this Maze of Dreams has no End....
Am I Dreaming Once Again
Free From the Tears I Have Shed
Somehow Nothing Feels the Same
Have my Dreams Abandoned me
Am I Dreaming Once Again
Where my Pain Dissolves Away
But the Flower isn't Red
And the Joy has Turned to Hate
Suppressed anger cannot hide
My failure I can't deny
Overwhelmed by dreadful screams
My spirit begs for me to die
In the distance a faint star gleams
But too far from reach...
I Spiral towards a tearful end!
5. In Death...
In a time of no hope when the sun felt so cold
And lonliness had distorted my mind
Was it all a dream, or reality
When She came back into my life
Her skin felt so real I can't deny how I feel
My mind must be misleading me
But it was so real when she died
Tears ran from my eyes
In my arms she died
Did she know how I feel
Is this all real, or just a vision in my mind
Forever to hold my peace
But she was there with me
Was it real when I kissed her, Good bye
Tell me in death we will not part
To reunite in endless time
Keep me in your heart and I'll wait for you
Forever to be by your side
I can no longer tell what's real and what is not
My dreams meld with my life
Was I there when she died, or was I in my mind
Did she die in my arms
But it was so real I can't deny how I feel
I still feel our last kiss good bye
Even though her blood is cold
One thing I know
I'll be with her again when I die
Tell me in death we will not part
To reunite in endless time
Keep me in your heart and I'll wait for you
Forever to be by your side
6. I Am Alone
As I Try to Break Free From my Mind
I Realize I Have No Where to Run
This World was Made for me
I Look Around, I am Alone
No Second Chance to Save my Soul
No Eternal Peace for Me
I Made The Choice at the End of Time
To Live Forever in Agony
With every passing day the shadow grows darker. I am forced to live this nightmare as a ghost of my former self. No glimpse of hope and no moments of joy to ease the torment. This is my own hell where I am to spend eternity.
My only companions on this journey are the specters of my failures, the demons of my unending sadness. Their only purpose to remind me of the path I should have chosen and the path I so foolishly decided to lead.
Deceived from the beginning at the end of my life, I gave away the light. For a simple lust for flesh I doomed myself to the shadows. I repent and ask to again be saved but my prayers remain unanswered. And now, with no one listening I am forced to embrace The Suffering . . .
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