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HELLCHILD LYRICS
"Circulating Contradiction" (1997)
1. Caress Wounds
2. In Search For The Scattered
3. Clockwork Toy
4. Walking Barefoot
5. For The Vanishing
6. To Find The Unknown
7. Sea, The Blue
8. The Scent of Summer Rain
9. In The Midst of Happiness
10. Raise The Right Fist
1. Caress Wounds
Told to show everything I have
I can show only disorganized types
Asked what is my hope
Racking my brain, can't give any complete answer
All I want is to leave everything as it is
Afraid all I have will break down when I show you them
Ashamed of myself as such
Why, I can't look at the fact in the face
Why, I injure myself on purpose
Why, I pose as a much bigger one than I am
I know, yes I know
I have no money, no power... nothing
I longingly look back at the days I trusted others
Now looking around myself
How many can I trust?
Life is led depending on you and them
No way to live by myself
When I'm pressed into a dead end
What will you do for me?
Sure that you'll run away
Yeah, you always listen to my grumbling
But it's no help for me
2. In Search For The Scattered
Nothing's left other than skin and bones
The eyeballs are almost coming off
Nothing can be done anymore
As I'm tied down to gathering my scattered brain
Again and again I try to kill myself with this gun
In search for your love
Yesterday I transformed your figure
I can't transform myself
And you never look back toward me
You don't express even your anger any longer
I only want your helping hand
I want to drift in the warm and sweet stream
Seeking your advice after our parting
Though I know what I should do
3. Clockwork Toy
You didn't have enough power
To defeat what has come in front of you
You put forward the hands of the clock again
You learned the way to get away
You learned the way to tell a lie
You made them believe you
And then you disappeared
You can't turn the hands of the clock back anymore
Even for a moment
Your anxious to return to your old days
You watch yourself in the past
Who were gleaming in the gloomy shade
You remember the warmth covering your body
And I want you to smile again
At that time when everything was shining
All I wanted was not money nor material
But your purity
I only wanted you to turn the pain into joy
The most simple, the most painful
4. Walking Barefoot
Can you see me?
Can you open your own eyes?
With your heavy dressing you identify yourself
You think it's ridiculous to make a step into the hard road
You think it's easy to do what others do
If you imposed your cold belief on me...
I'd rather be walking barefoot
As long as I don't lose myself
It's impossible to change a society
Infant dream is lost forever
If you just long for the pleasure
I'd rather be walking barefoot
As long as I don't lose myself
Freedom can be found only on the hard road
The dream and freedom of my infancy
Are still echoing inside my distr
5. For The Vanishing
I've never fallen asleep
Since that night
An unexpected light
Is seeping out of the room
As if it were the last gleam
For the vanishing
Impossible to sleep
Without light
Impossible to sleep
Without someone beside me
There's no help for it
It is easier to give up
But I want you to live out
With intrusiveness inside myself
I'm looking at the freezing coldness
On the outside of the room
Eventually I can do nothing for you
Nothing but weeping
There's no coming back to those happy days
I can do nothing but weeping
I'm looking at the freezing coldness
On the outside of the room
6. To Find The Unknown
Eager to find an unknown crack
I'm expecting something will happen
Exposing my suffering mind
To the unknown breeze
I try to find something unknown
Not having decided where to go
Kicking and rolling trifles
I make a step into the diverging ways
No one but I must decide the way to follow
Someone has parted from me
I can't deal with anything
Like a bird whose wings are closed
I'm waiting out the storm
The more I resist, the worse things will get
Drinking can't resolve anything
7. Sea, The Blue
You say that the sea is blue
Though you've never seen the blue sea
Answer:
It lies between joy and sorrow
Man commits one sin after another for desire
Woman commits a sin for the man
Some would suffer from their sin
Others would cease to be human in negating the sin
But you ceased to be human
In suffering from the intolerable pain
In the scent of perfume
You let me smile
And I told you the sea is blue
Which I have never seen
In our grieving for each other
Sweet scent penetrates our bodies
Illusory blue sea may be more like us
No more good reason to stay together
You must be expecting
The real blue sea to be seen
Before either of us sinks down
Before the weakness breaks us down
We'd better get out of the room
Remaining a faint scent of sweet perfume
8. The Scent of Summer Rain
"Take me together, it was your promise with me"
The scent of summer rain flowed from you
Sobbing and rubbing your head with knees
I, who even couldn't touch you, make any move
I am the man of half-face
In the daytime,
Suffering from a hangover, smoking from yesterday
I spit to myself, smoking a ciggarette
To myself smelling like scum
Ashamed of myself under the blue sky
No lie lies in what the sky is blue
I found it crucial
To protect, then lose a person
I found myself too mean and small
You, who have never showed your tears,
Are now crying and weeping in the dark corridor
I, who can make no move beside you
Can but have a scent of summer rain
Flowing from you
9. In The Midst of Happiness
Never intending to make a lie
I tried hard to realize our wishes
Against my will I had to get through
Right in front of you with tears
I could have done much more for you
But I lost something
Something got lost
And it made me sick
Something got lost
Happiness makes me forget something
We, the ones who never know real threat
Some would even be greedy for blood
We, the ones who never know real struggle
Happiness makes us forget something
We don't make sense that this very thoughts
Arises from the midst of happiness
And even in this situation
We are longing for something
As long as we lead a life
10. Raise The Right Fist
Drooling over amounts of money
Patting the belly filled with greed
You have the face to smile gently
Raising the right fist
You advocate everyone be equal
No difference be made between white, black and yellow
Taking care of oneself
Let's take care of animals as well
OK to eat vegetables
There can be no sexism
As a forceful man pays money when he rapes a woman
Throw out the lies and vanity
Into the gleam of the night
You forgive no one but you
A poor lump of ugly flesh
Smash the age with this single fist
The age when everything is tolerated
Raise your bloody right fist
High into the air
If it is of no use
Everyone will disappear
By the time you exhaust your energy
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