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GEGEBEGEGE LYRICS
"Gegebegege" (2003)
1. All Over Again
2. Lost Ideals
3. Wasted Time
4. The Trap of the Everyday
5. Illusion
6. Disappointment
7. Good Evil
8. Late Night Considerations
9. Wait for Me
10. Need
11. With Fist in the Wall
12. With Fist in the Wall
1. All Over Again
Another blow and again
I’m feeling the pain,
though actually
nobody hit me.
One little seed began
to develop its thorny bush
Anxiety,
uncertainty,
and fear feed it like the sun,
the earth,
and water.
The wounds that have just been
healed begin to bleed again.
One more little gleam of hope.
Shielded,
it's waiting for the time.
To light fire once more.
2. Lost Ideals
The ideals that kept me going turned
out to be unpractical.
I got lost among them on my way to happiness.
The road turned out to be difficult and winding.
The ideals I lived with till now didn't help.
They just dragged behind me like
a beaten dog whom no one can help and
it dies on the way home.
Proud of my ideals,
I used to walk raising
my head towards the sun.
My eyes hurt like hell.
And then I suppressed the ideals
and never tried to show them to the world.
Although I suffered
seeing the emptiness of my soul,
I did nothing to fill it with something
that would make me happy.
I had no more strength.
There was no one who could
help me recover it.
Burnt out, I was lying on the beautiful,
green grass which smelled of my ideals.
3. Wasted Time
I watch myself pretend to live.
I keep doing things I don't want to do.
Abused, obedient, deceived. I follow the current.
The river bank is far away. The waterfall at the end.
To leave the current for once.
Dead tired, I'm waiting for help.
Understanding more end more every minute.
It's less tiring not to fight the current.
When I recover my strength. I'll try to make my way out.
I pass round something there's no way back to any more.
4. The Trap of the Everyday
I can't find the time
for my beloved ones though
I want to give
them so much.
I get caught in the arduous
pursuit of life.
I devour time way too fast.
Too many thoughts
whirl in my head.
Even love disappear
crushed by tons of waste.
Will it perish?
Hopefully nor or I'll perish along.
I'm caught in the trap
of the everyday.
I have no more strength
to brake out of it.
I'm waiting for the helpful
hand I'll manage not to hurt.
5. Illusion
Love discovered on the bottom of an injured soul.
Heart that starts beating again.
You get up from your knees.
In my clenched fist I keep what I’ve been looking for so long.
At last I begin to live.
I need to acquire strength.
I’m still weak.
Someone strokes my hand.
I open my fist.
There’s nothing inside.
It looked so beautiful.
I cheated myself again.
I spit at my own face.
6. Disappointment
Fossilized ferns in the woods
Full of gnomes.
They leave their feet’s imprint.
Everything turns motionless.
In the balloons of fear,
eyes fill with saliva. In the stillness,
silence eats up the heart’s fossils.
Cast away by the day of grotesque issues.
The stones fall down from the sky.
There’s nothing apart from them anymore.
Almost…
7. Good Evil
Isolated thoughts stifle my reflexes.
They destroy me from within,
wreaking havoc.
Known, suppressed,
deprived of emotions.
Annihilated truths pulsating with life.
Evil that shows up no one knows
why and where from.
Destroying force, brutal deeds.
Beautiful love killed by the good.
The evil that brings about hatred
builds love,
making it strong.
8. Late Night Considerations
The peace I don’t feel. The joy I have lost.
The anxiety that has taken hold of me.
The uncertainty I’ve found.
The way of being turned out to be existence.
Deprived of dreams and hope. Full of distrust.
Deprived of will to act.
Wrapped up in a destructive blanket which sooner or later
annihilates human nature.
Empty words kill me.
Artificial feelings overwhelm me.
I’m falling into the impossibility of thinking.
Those that made me live play with me.
They did it on purpose.
And I?
I don’t oppose.
My thoughts are empty, my eyes blind and my heart deaf.
Can you fight the world with your heart alone?
Probably yes, but on condition that it the hypocrite’s heart.
If only wonder if it’s better to conquer the world of to give in?
9. Wait for Me
Exerting myself to the utmost.
I’m trying to reach something,
not knowing what and what for.
I catch my breath in my hands.
I keep trying to equal others.
The race is going on and your side if only for a moment
Wait for me
Please wait.
I cannot be like you.
I cannot run, all I can do is walk.
You reject me and leave me.
I’m a burden to you.
Running and hurry,
you cannot see the abyss on your way.
10. Need
If only someone came over to wrap me in a blanket
Of understanding. I’d cling to them like a tree to the soil.
We would satisfy our needs and pass each other the strength to live.
If only someone came over and after the journey is finished.
I would cling to them and let my hair be pulled,
if only he promised that it would be untangle.
If only someone came over. The friendship with me is impossible.
11. With Fist in the Wall
White wants to be black. Someone is building
a wall in front of me.
I hit the wall with my fist.
He changed he’s someone else. I’ve been
cheated once again. A friend hit me with
a knife. I keep on meeting new faces
(people). Smiles outside
money in the heart.
I have to be careful. Take care to myself.
Confidence and betrayal.
Overwhelmed with emptiness I get up
and there is no one around.
I hit wall with my fist.
I recall, I see new faces. Alien
for me but at the same time familiar.
Lost in the abyss of falsity. Branded
with egoism.
12. With Fist in the Wall
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