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CRIMSON LOTUS LYRICS
"Sinful Deeds" (2005 Demo)
1. Velvet Night
2. Little Pieces
3. Broken
4. Fall of Eden
5. Relentless
1. Velvet Night
“I didn’t believe that anything could change my life. However, when I saw you I found something within me I had thought long lost. I found myself mesmerized, like a moth obsessed by a lone streetlight in the dark of night.”
I was lying on the ground, looking at the sky, under the starlight
I fell asleep and climbed above the velvet night - I saw her dance on the fields of green
A girl dressed up in grief, like a pale autumn dawn
From that day on, I was drawn into her melancholic form
Just a tormented man, is all that I am
Death drenched in guilt for every early grave
Past hides the deeds that haunt my sleep
Yet she makes me see their vanity
I see, I hear / her voice will guide me away from pain
I feel, I fear / this dream won’t last outside my head
Could this be the one I need, this weeping nightingale?
On these plains where heaven and earth meet
I am reaching higher, and hoping the sun never unveils
Its face behind the horizon where heaven and hell meet
So, morning came and with it passed the dream - and I found myself alone here again
In my private place, under stars and velvet night
Will I ever find her again? I am lost in the vastness of the world
And I am alone, seeking for a life worth living ‘cause now I’m just a leaf caught up in a gale
We are the same, you and I - we never could find things we looked for and now we fade
So long ago we accepted the truth that nothing would ever change
2. Little Pieces
“Why bother ourselves with grief? Why let ourselves believe that our pain would be anything special? Life gets easier when you just let yourself go numb. The less you expect from life the less disappointment you face. We all face the same unbeatable nemesis though it manifests itself in different forms. So why bother fighting?”
As you open up before me, like a book from which I read
The secrets you would hide from all the prying eyes
You never understood why gods would have you fooled like this
First have you pray for help; then throw you at the wolves
The scenes you hide in your mind show a life of little chastity
But things you’ve done in your past are of little importance to me
We are but little pieces of this world around us
After a thousand years have passed, no one will care for the trivial lives we’ve had
As you try to conceal your thoughts, you make them more obvious to me
You are so vulnerable ‘tis a miracle you live
Forever you’ve been broken - agony as your only friend
Seeing happiness from a distance never reaching it
You and I, we have always been astray
Never finding the things we have always been yearning for
Maybe now we can share some of our pain and find a way to survive the coming days
3. Broken
“I never forgot my past that lead me here. Such a bitter tale I hesitate to tell it. Yet, as it is with everything, one must understand the past to understand the present. What chance does a child have against all the evil of the world? Once a soul is broken already as a sapling, how could it grow into anything pure?”
I’m just a child, please, don’t hurt me anymore
Bruised up by the hands that should shelter me from harm
Every night, I fear the sound of footsteps closing in
And the shadows cast from the opening doorway
Under my bed, a sanctuary from the monsters that haunt me
I feel no pain; the shame has hardened my skin
Inside my head, a thousand screams and an urge to break free
No use in praying; the gods won’t hear a word that we say
Nothing ever changed, broken; I remained weak and small
Always finding myself abused by those to whom I fall for
Every night, a dream where the things I yearn for are withering away
And it seems to me, (that) the dream has turned into reality
Day after day, I find myself in the streets again
I feel no shame; the pain has hardened my mind
Inside my head, a thousand screams and an urge to break free
No use in praying…
So what if it hurts, so what if you’re broken?
You have always made it through,
(I) thought you never believed in happy endings
So scream at the world and let it all come out
There's no shame in being weak
You never believed that life is perfect
4. Fall of Eden
“I fooled myself into believing this would last. However, I should have known I’m denied of such happiness. A fate I’ve come to know too well. As the days passed you became restless and I knew something was wrong. Then one day you left.”
Today is the last day in Eden
Though all the grief and tears are much to pay
I don't want to see my paradise burning
This world will fall and end today
So it’s come to this then;
It is time for our paths to separate again and fade
In the turmoil of life who could understand the reasons
For everything we have to endure to preserve a dream
I hope you will understand one day
(That) I take this path for both our sakes
To have loved and lost is a pain we can endure
But to see that love turn cold would tear us in two
What can I say? It kills me inside to see you leave
With all these tears I hide, it's hard to believe
(That) things could ever be the same
What is there left for me to retain?
What do you want me to say? “Everything’s fine” while it’s not?
You know we can’t pretend and hide behind a lie
Though all we ever wanted is now within our reach,
It will be forever lost as you are too blind to see it
My life has never had a meaning this pure before
Now you would tear it all apart and leave me bleeding
You are the only light that shines upon my tarnished soul
Why can’t you see what this will do to me?
Stop for a while and tell me, do you honestly think
This love could ever bloom, while we can’t live with ourselves?
We never could forgive all the pain that was inflicted
We never would forget the paths that lead us here
5. Relentless
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