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CRADLE TO GRAVE LYRICS
"CTG" (2004)
1. As We Lay Dying
2. Projectile
3. Nuclear Flowers
4. Just Cause
5. Sunrise Sunset
6. What I Say
7. Southern Oak
8. Shut My Eyes
9. The Manipulated Dead
10. Wounded
11. Across The Sky
12. Bleeding Heaven
13. Crown of Snakes
1. As We Lay Dying
Five senses fade into black from my birth
The greater that I fail in life
The more I seem to realize
There's nothing more than empty eyes
That refuse my hand and watch
As we lay dying
Eight fingers sift through this mind without thumbs
Tomorrow whispers fleeting lies
Yesterday looks away and sighs
While today stays a waste of time
As I become what I am not
As we lay dying
Life shines through death
Death shines through life
Life shines through death
Death shines through wasted life
Running down the sunset while gasping for the next breath
The thought always escaped me that I could be nothing more
Back when I never bothered to persist when I faltered
I always answered questions never asked before
My breathing starts to wear thin as all this screaming within
Silenced every heartbeat of dreams now gone astray
In the nearest future lies the death of every virtue
Instilled in hopes and smiles and trusts and purposes
Of what was me
As we crawl, as we try
As we fall watch their eyes
As we lay dying
Nothing more to see here except the lack of me here
Morning after morning of nothing left
Struggle to find the words when the shock precedes hurt
And always act as if I’d always stay alive
Brother will believe in me when he relies on memory
Father will believe I could not have gave much more
Mother will recover from all she'll have to suffer
This lifetime that I lived will be a gift no more
As we crawl, as we try
As we fall watch their eyes
As we lay dying
2. Projectile
I want to kill the prologue
I want to kill the first glance
I want to kill the bright gleam
I want to kill disasters of conception
I want to kill one Mother
I want to kill one Father
I want to kill childhood
I want to kill families of memory
I want to kill ‘forever’
I want to kill my shadow
I want to kill my next life
I want to kill the smiles of tomorrow
Will I gain strength…
Will I see clear…
Will I rise beyond life…
Will I save myself…
Will I stray from ‘just an accident’ to ‘a mistake’…
Will I trade blood for the forgotten meaning of my name…
Will I torture heavens that claim to lead the way…
Will I believe that the past has cradled lies
And all the futures offer truths and calm refuge
Too manufactured to believe…
When this projectile begins flight?
3. Nuclear Flowers
Time to write down my mingles with the mid-life
White lies from the high times with young minds that want to die
Sly elders that try hard enough to fucking cry
Just reply that it’s all state of mind
Fuck that, I can’t shake my head
And get it back on track
Where’s my share?
My little pitch to little mister
Little cut?
Hey! What’d I say?
“Of course”
I fooled the system with issues non-existent
And ears that would listen to smiles that would glisten
Fists kept on kissing the sisters with intentions
While I straddled fences and acted so tense
Fuck that, I can’t cut the slack
And bring the history back of all I’ve created
With you on your deathbed
Next to the horse head
Staring back
“Of course”
When I feel it, I try it from up above
My water discovers an ancient love
Your heart breaks
Mexican skyline
Suns of frustration
Rise at the foot of my bed
The nuclear flowers
That she picks for me
Always seem wilted and dead
Flow, ebb
As the tequila
Flows through my system
I’m making friends with the floor
When the squid’s happy
Up on W. Hill
Sobriety becomes a chore
Lowest tide
Why don’t you feel?
Or can’t you?
Don’t feel
Empty
Empty
Empty
Empty cup
4. Just Cause
Make me choose just one wrong path
My mouth brings a wonderful attack
Suspect, this neglect
I talk in circles everyday
Don’t fight this fear
No fucking will to reappear
My life is a mistake
Make me choose
Please fool me
I’ll forgive and forget
Trust me
No fucking light
Is blinding me again tonight
I’ve pulled my own strings
This whole time without help
Running under all the dripping
Scattered burning tears of angels
Crying pleas of happy sorrow
Begging me to stay
This is what I was made for
5. Sunrise Sunset
I have tried to replace anger
With complacency and boredom
And the will of a wiser man
And I have tried to replace hunger
With satisfied and complete
And a constant fucking rut
I have tried to replace instinct
With pondering and intellect
And the prisons of patience
And I have tried to replace passion
With devotion and protection
And too much of not enough
Years from now when all my regret
Washes upon the very shores
That I thought long forgotten
I will know that my tragedies
Have fallen on deaf ears, closed minds
Dead souls, sewn eyes, cold hearts
When I feel this motherfucking rage
Kept undercover, I force it all down
But it’s rising inside again
And changing my mind again, I force it all out
When it’s pushing my weight again
And tempting my fate again, I force it all down
When it’s dreaming of foreign shelters
And dreaming of when it felt you
I let it all out
I drift above, below and in and out
As the sun goes down
Nothing’s ever going to change me
Daylight is bought and sold
Daylight is bought and sold
Daylight is bought and sold
Daylight is bought and sold
6. What I Say
My confession never was for real
Execution without appeal
You can’t conceal that
Once a day everyday
Is quickly twice or more
The slaves still work out in the fields
The poor stargazer still can’t find a tear
After all these years
But what I say bears no weight
To what they’ve said before
Take my life back from your dusty ocean
Take my words back from that fake emotion
The tortured burnout will never fade
The tortured widow cashes in his grave
Pennyroyal saved
But what I say bears no weight
To what went on before
Take my life back from your dusty ocean
Take my words back from that fake emotion
Loss...
7. Southern Oak
When I woke up in the morning
I hit the ground with what I did
Lord knows that I won’t remember
But I know I don’t forget… not yet
Strike the match and let the day begin
With a broken cigarette
And let the flames burn these feelings off
As I smoke it to my head
My southern oak billows smoke that clouds the sky
That fading sigh is my last gasp of hope
My oak cries for more
Barely tired when the sun had woke me
Even though I’d barely slept
Another shattered dream in my hands
Another noose around my neck
So fight the fire with this broken record
And then crawl back into bed
And let the day roll right on by
Because the night knows where I’ll head
My southern oak billows smoke that clouds the sky
That fading sigh is my last gasp of hope
My oak cries for more
Take time to burn and toss the lessons learned
Take time to see that nothing bothers me
Take time to prove that I can never lose
Take time to fly into the sacrifice
Take time to fear everything you held dear
Take time to fall then rise above it all
Take time to fight and drink away the night
Take time to die and waste this fucking life
Pass me the knife
I take my life
Don't wonder why
8. Shut My Eyes
Teardrops blaze their way across my pillow
The trail’s still fucking hot
In this water are the paths I follow
Every time I am lost
Somebody shut my eyes
Somebody told somebody else
To never fantasize
These forty tears were raining on your forty eyes
To drown you in my flood
My whole family and all my fucking friends
Are everything you are not
Somebody shut my eyes
Somebody told somebody else
Somebody should
It’s surreal to love what keeps you wondering
Too feel my touch is to forgive history
I’ve rinsed my hands of memories
As you’ve rinsed your life of me
These bullets wait for escape
On the shells I write your name
On the trigger I place the blame
From within the barrel you'll see my face
Don’t say goodbye
I’ll do the same
Soon enough your sun burns on my shoulders
Long after I’m gone
The moon I hid within your shadows
Will start to shine
Somebody shut my eyes
I’ve finally shown this fucking world
Nobody could
9. The Manipulated Dead
Wake up on the links or mountainside
Sparrows can’t make noise all throughout life
Every living thing dies alone
Darkness will not fear or love the lifeline
More pain by dawn
Let’s dream it never comes
One life to lead, one to slip away
One time to prove
One to reflect through memories that haunt
When it’s all been dead and said and done
The manipulated dead
The manipulated dead
Once upon a time begged forgiveness
Rabbits to follow into night
Cellar doors have nothing to hide
Grandma Death waits for her letter
Cunning children can’t lie forever
More pain by dawn
Let’s dream it never comes
One life to lead, one to slip away
One time to prove
One to reflect through memories that haunt
When it’s all been dead and said and done
The manipulated dead
The manipulated dead
Once upon a time begged forgiveness
The manipulated dead
The manipulated dead
Once upon a time gave advice
Focus on the forgotten subject
No imagination
No safety
No tangent universe
Do you feel what you dream?
In your dreams are you real?
Do the skies open up for the past to fall through?
Do you save the world and laugh it off?
Do you forget yourself?
You’re already forgotten
More pain by dawn
Let’s dream it never comes
One life to lead, one to slip away
One time to prove
One to reflect through memories that haunt
When it’s all been dead and said and done
The manipulated dead
The manipulated dead
Once upon a time begged forgiveness
The manipulated dead
The manipulated dead
Once upon a time gave advice
10. Wounded
11. Across The Sky
I reach back through your mind
To the day that struck me blind
When we were undefined
No future within sight
Why can’t she realize
The past should stay behind?
With schemes and dreams
And bended knees that never reach full stride
Just like mine
Hands over shoulders
Ash across the sky
Scatter me slowly
As I’ve yet to die young
Two-time, just once
'Fuck me, it’s just for fun'
‘Fuck you, I wasn’t done’
A warning of what is to come?
Why won’t my memory
Fail just this once for me?
I fear these seams will stretch and bleed
All over everything
We’ll ever be
Hands over shoulders
Ash across the sky
Scatter me slowly
As I’ve yet to die
And follow my heart
Will you want something more?
Will I become your whore?
Why can’t I understand all of this evidence?
Will I remember that what you gave me
Is all I get?
Fuck me fuck me fuck me fuck me
Fuck me fuck me fuck me fuck me
Fuck me fuck me fuck me fuck me
Fuck me fuck me
Fuck it
The hands of your former grasp you under mine
This man has been frozen in time
Where the past is no friend of mine
No friend of mine
No friend of mine
12. Bleeding Heaven
Well, I guess I just got back from purgatory
You’ve been back for days
Slipping in and out between dreams and memories
Never showing my face
Just like you
Step lightly when you walk across the bedroom
I’m between you and the floor
All your lifetimes couldn’t offer pleasure
Still I’m never alone
Just let go
This bleeding heaven that is burning your touch
Could be nobody else
This being human’s unbecoming of you
I grab your handle and I pour fake
I’m finally alone
Only as parallel lines will we intersect
Which pales compared to the shame I see
In every stranger I fuck
Between every line I do
Around every child within parents reach
On every fence
Everywhere
This bleeding heaven that is burning your touch
Could be nobody else
This being human’s unbecoming of you
I grab your handle and I pour fake
This bitter poison that I’ll leave in your spine
The smallest piece of myself
This bleeding heaven that is walking away
Discovered everything was force-fed
As I poured fake
You fuck
13. Crown of Snakes
Die for future
Die for duty
Die for your military
They’ve fooled you all
With this war of atrocity
Die for borders
Die for countries
Die for your territory
They’ve fooled you all
This is not a fucking Holy Land
I won’t die
No army can stop me
Crown of snakes
Die for martyrs
Die for idols
Die for your dead religion
They’ve fooled you all
A hoax that you’re praying to
I won’t die
No heaven can save me
Crown of snakes
Die for needles
Die for mirrors
Die for all your addictions
They’ve fooled you all
With their mindfuck
Die for cravings
Die for withdrawal
Die for all your afflictions
They’ve fooled you all
With the chance of enlightenment
I won’t die
No poison can kill me
Crown of snakes
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