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AREA 54 LYRICS
"Beckoning Of The End" (2003)
1. Living A Lie
2. Beckoning Of The End
3. Beyond A Pale Existance
4. To Conform Is To Suffer
5. Scarred Earth
6. In My Blood
7. Another Life
8. Personal Gain
9. Cancer Of The Mind
10. This Is The End Of Everything
11. Video track: Living A Lie
1. Living A Lie
Living A Lie
Like a servant on a new day
Growing tired of the game
Going nowhere
‘til I find my
Secret place of my own
And all the people in my hometown
Say that I don’t belong
One cold instinct to survive this
From this cruel world I hide
Living a lie
Living this way and on my own
In my head
Feeling the pain of ‘once again’
In my soul
Seeing the world for what it is
On my own
And I feel
I’m…
Living a Lie
I can’t live through these words
Through these eyes
(Live) In a lie
I can’t live through these words
Through this life
Blood on my hands
And scars on my wrists
Would bear the truth that I face
Trying so hard I lost my youth
And my soul
When seeing a whore for what she is
Now I know Am I free or…
Living a Lie
I can’t live through these words
Through these eyes
(Live) In a lie
I can’t live through these words
Through this
Living a Lie
I can’t live through these words
Through these eyes
In a lie
I can’t live through these words
Through these
(Eyes) Living a lie
I can’t face my last words
Through these eyes
(Live) in a lie
I can’t live
2. Beckoning Of The End
Beckoning of The End
What do you see when you look in the space
At the back of your mind where the skeletons hide
D’you fear the voices that whisper to you
From the blackest recesses of your darker side
Tempted by urges you cannot explain
To do harm to yourself
Or the people you blame
Grip on reality fades, long past mourning
I face my fears alone
And though I see the sun
I still can’t find my way
The person I’ve become
I know that it won’t be okay
Inside my ageing shell
I just can’t find my way
And can’t escape myself
I don’t want to live one more day
Is this the end?
Time has been so cruel and callous again
Like a disease
Drifting into the unknown of my mind
Becoming my father, I must be blind
And though I see the sun
I still can’t find my way
The person I’ve become
I know that it won’t be okay
Inside my ageing shell
I just can’t find my way
And can’t escape myself
Destroying the world in my way
Trying to hold on
With no recollection of what I have done
God, let me be
Like a disease
Waiting to die
Like a disease
Waiting to die
Blame slips through my fingers once again
Rain pours down inside my aching head
Like a child I’m lost in time
Yearning to belong
And I guess that they were right
I just don’t belong
3. Beyond A Pale Existance
Beyond A Pale Existence
Beyond a pale existence is heaven?
And you know that you can’t take
The fear you have inside
So you read the words of ‘Trust’ by another
And pray to God you’ll wake
In hell you just can’t hide
And still the pain surrounds the sadness
Beyond this life we’re pushed with time
The fear of the unknown is madness
As we move further down the line
When life is nothing but a struggle
And you disintegrate
And long to meet your death
You wonder if the day will surface
When you can feel the sun
Instead of life’s cold breath
Meanwhile existence seems so futile
And one by one we’re going down
We’re lost and left to rust in silence
Just like an old corroded town
And still the pain surrounds the sadness
Beyond this life we’re pushed with time
The fear of the unknown is madness
As we move further down the line
4. To Conform Is To Suffer
To Conform Is To Suffer
Don’t tell me what I know
My own life is my own
Your advice, I don’t need
Sick of your empty words
What’s inside, try to see
Money means shit to me
You betrayed, I re-live it
And I’m losing my way
I won’t go down that road
Givin’ in like I’m told
Wasted years play on me
I can’t be –
5. Scarred Earth
Scarred Earth
On this day
The mistake was made again
One wrong man tries
To change the world
But I know they can’t
(Make our spirits fray)
Break our hearts
(We’ll find another way)
Re-define (the question in your mind)
Don’t ask why
Holding on (is harder than it seems)
But they can’t reach
(The people in your dreams)
Finding the strength from inside
Freedoms price, loss of life
Nations pain, all in vain
Wash this from my mind
In the wake of this fate
One more place laid to waste
Is it the last time?
How can we live like this?
Future of emptiness
Blinded eyes fed with lies
Justify reasons why
Leave this world behind
Scarred earth will pay the price
They destroy and don’t think twice
The world is closing in
The hate from all I’ve seen
Now that you have shown
The lengths to which you’d go
Bring the whole sky down
(Can’t control) raging fires burn
(What will be) a lesson man won’t learn
We pay for their will with our soul
6. In My Blood
In My Blood
Time heals my eyes
But not what they’ve seen
And the mirror tells only lies
I walk in darkness
Lost in your fortress
Trying to find some peace of mind
I can’t see that there’s a way out
You chew on the sanity left in me
In my blood, through my veins
And now you fill my brain
Open truth torn away
I’ve lost another day
In my blood, through my veins
And now you fill my brain
Hope and truth torn away
I’m drowning in my pain
Now I’m twisted up
And mislead like a story with no end
And they still fear me
Though I can’t break free
From the shit you’ve given me
I don’t need your traditions
You just love the power over me
In my blood, through my veins
And now you fill my brain
Open truth torn away
I’ve lost another day
In my blood, through my veins
And now you fill my brain
Hope and truth torn away
I’m drowning in my pain
I can’t see that there’s a way out
And you just need to leave me be
In my blood, through my veins
And now you fill my brain
Open truth torn away
I’ve lost another day
In my blood, through my veins
And now you fill my brain
Hope and truth torn away
I’m drowning in my pain
Waiting for the time to come
When I will need no-one
Dead and boxed this pain long gone
This cannot be undone
I lived my life day by day
Watching myself decay
And prayed the world would go away
I’m drowning in my pain
7. Another Life
Another Life
As time goes by
And your words die
The pain that remains
Is all I can save, is all I own
Before too long I will know
Another life just gone
Letting go, so hard to say
And I wish that you could stay
As I return, my heart must yearn
For time, ease my mind, move on
Realise I can’t stop time
And your tears they show
All the things I already know
As I watch you drift away
And the light begins to fade
I tried to show
Who I am, I just don’t know
And I wish you could have stayed
As the light began to fade
8. Personal Gain
Personal Gain
What is it that makes you
The way that you are?
Laughing along
While you fill me with scars
Hiding beneath
Such a clever disguise
Oh the lies
You look in the mirror
Does it look the same?
You should by rights
Be completely insane
I know Catholic parents
Can’t be all it takes
To make normal people
Turn into fakes
How many pieces of me
Do you need to take?
Every day they must pay
‘cos you play personal gain
I watched as you got
All the things that you need
By choosing the ones you knew
You could mislead
If they knew the truth, then my hate
They would all understand
So now it’s the end
‘cos the light now shines clear
You’ve been exposed
And now I know your fears
In time, what’s inside you
Should be mine
I read in between all the lines
You live in fear
Every day they must pay
‘cos you play personal gain
You use people in life
To get what you need
Your thirst for success
Ascending to greed
Gladly you greet me
Again and again
And be my friend
For your personal gain
Now that you’ve fallen
You slow for the bends
And making amends
Is a means to an end
I’m hardly likely
To lose once again
And fall in a trap
For your personal gain
Drowning in quicksand
The rain still falls on me
Pulling myself up
‘cos no-one’s there for me
Never again can I let myself be
In this place of aggression
The chain must be cut free
How many times can you
Fuck someone over?
Claiming you’ve changed
With no God on your shoulder
I clearly see you infect to survive
But even the undead must die
9. Cancer Of The Mind
Cancer Of The Mind
Cancer of the mind
Every word they said
Just cannot be justified
Grinding down
Away at my faith
Do I have the will to live?
A cold sign of the times
Is it wrong of me
To contemplate a homicide?
If God hates me
I’ll hate him back
And take seven steps forward
Towards de-evolution
So the truth is what they wish to hide
In a world where people should be free
From my torment
The brick road that I see
Is not yellow, it’s black
And full of misery
Yet I have no place else to go
‘cos they’ll spit back in my face
So as the path unwinds
My disgust for them
Permeates an endless sky
Like a storm that just gets worse
I challenge the darkness
And try to break free from this curse
So the truth is what they wish to hide
In a world where people should be free
And I guess it’s true, in trust we die
In a whirlwind raging with deceit
I keep the demons inside my soul
I keep the murders, I can’t let go
Of hatred for the people
That I thought I knew
Silence is the beast inside
The door that’s closed in the back of my mind
The part of me that is ready to die
When their betrayal lines up with my eyes
When I feel incomplete
And my shadow will never retreat
Deep inside I died on a cross
For the faults of my own
That I cannot beat
They tortured my soul
I searched for some meaning in life
I stuck to the fight
All this has been in vain
And it’s hard to start again
I step inside the eyes of time
The world, it turns
And churns another crime
Another empty year has passed
I have regrets, too much I wish to ask
And it eats at me like cancer of the mind
10. This Is The End Of Everything
This Is The End Of Everything
Wind blows through the trees
All I see is pain
Open up my life
In the pouring rain
Every stepping stone
Sinks into the ground
Friends call out my name
Everything has gone
To another place
To be here feels so wrong
Every way I turn
Shows me I’m alone
All I ever wanted was to go home
All I ever needed was to go home
All I ever wanted was to go home
And the things that I saw were untrue
The ending is well overdue
And the things that I saw in my head
They tell me I’m better off dead
I cannot be who you want me to be
And now I know that this is not enough for me
I’m growing old, getting weaker every day
Within my heart I know there is no other way
Alone, I stand alone
All else has failed and there’s nowhere left to hide
This is the end of everything
I can see what tomorrow brings
This is the end of everything
The end
I cannot be who you want me to be
But I love you more than I show
Please think of me as the child with that smile
And not a fool who lived on in denial
I‘m tired of being alone
All else has failed and there’s nowhere left to hide
Suicide
This is the end of everything
I can see what tomorrow brings
This is the end of everything
The end
I’m still waiting, I’m still waiting
I’m still waiting, I’m still waiting
All I see is pain
Lost myself in the dream
Can I make it somehow?
In this place I call home
I remain with a frown
11. Video track: Living A Lie
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